In the dark void of "the past is gone, the future is not yet here." Its called transition.
Fear and love are the 2 core emotions we have in life. They are always related towards each other. Presence of fear is an absence of love. It is a sign of unwilling to let go, a sign of relying on our own limited strengths.
Fear is not a bad emotion. The energy is almost the same as excitement. In the moment we have full acceptance of fear, life transformation begins.
Danaan Parry brilliantly describes Fear Of Transformation in "The Essene book of Days":
"Sometimes I feel that my life is a series of trapeze swings. I'm either hanging on to a trapeze bar or swinging along or, for a few moments in my life, I'm hurtling across space in between trapeze bars. Most of the time, I spend my life hanging on for dear life to my trapeze-bar- of-the-moment. It carries me along a certain steady rate of swing and I have the feeling that I'm in control of my life...
I see another trapeze bar swinging toward me. It's empty, and I know, in that place in me that knows, that this new trapeze bar has my name on it. It is my next step, my growth, my aliveness coming to get me. In my heart- of-hearts, I know that for me to grow, I must release my grip on the present, well-know bar to move to the new one...
Each time I am afraid I will miss, that I will be crushed on unseen rocks in the bottomless chasm between the bars. But I do it anyway...
I soar across the dark void of "the past is gone, the future is not yet here." Its called transition. I have come to believe that it is the only place that real change occurs...
Transforming our need to grab that new bar, any bar, is allowing ourselves to dwell in the only place where change really happens. It can be terrifying. It can be enlightening, in the true sense of the word. Hurtling through the void, we just may learn how to fly."
Today, is my last day in hong kong in 2018. I have decided to take a full year sabbatical leave to explore the uncertainties in this world, to inspire and be inspired, to give and receive. I feel completely aligned with the flying trapeze stories. This is the most fearful moment in my life so far, the insecurity, the unknowns, the nothingness are terrifying like I am being completely swallowed by the dragon in the dark.
I choose not fighting anymore, I breathe into the darkness and I give full permission to face the dragon. Thank you universe for giving me power and faith to dive deep into a more expansive and abundant life.
No matter where we are, we can always join together and share the most powerful and supportive energy to conquer our fear. May we all taking one conscious breath now. Inhale, we are ready to regain all the positive energy that we may have lost, we have faith towards this fear. Exhale, we are ready to release all the negative energy that we may have picked up, we surrender and open up to a better plan that is far beyond our physical sight.